Sweetest escape.

2008-05-11T15:01:00.000+08:00

HELLO! I am back after sooo long.
Okay alot things happen lately.
And im rushing through changing my blogskin because
immm LATE. Skin might look fugy, I realise
blogskins are made more to female use. And it's difficult
to find a perfect suitable blogskin for a male to use.
Oh well. Have to use plain ones.

Blog again when immm back tonight.
Updated links. (:

Loves.

2008-04-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

Friday -
Today! I reported sick. although school was about to end
like less than 2hours. I was seriously having a headache luh.
I don't know why. And I keep having difficultly breathing.
Went home took panadol then slept for 2hours. I feel better then.

And also! I go my block-period timetable for next week.
Because I don't have SA1 and that means I end school super duper
early for 1 week. Or more I guess? It's either 1.10 or 1.45.

Saturday -
Went out in the afternoon,
AND AND IM SO HAPPY that NOKIA CARE called me. They wants me to
bring my N95 back home, he rested enough and is now ready !
I thought it would really take a week before I could get it back.
But still, I didn't bring my receipt and everything when they called.
Maybe I will collect it tml.
Then at night went for midnight movie
with my cousins. The forbidden kingdom. Haha, it's a great movie luh.
Funny, exciting. And more to kung fu.
Reached home at 1.30am. Bath and slep at 2.

Sunday -
I just realise I got a test but I don't know when isit.
Nothing much today, went out and slack.
Had lunch at holland v.
Then went home. I didn't collect my N95,
I was too lazy, guess he still needs to stay
there for another night bah.
I hate being sick, I just could not be myself.
My cough isn't getting any better. It's like almost 3 weeks soon.
My ear is another problem. I hate hearing that buzzing sound. It's irritating.
I can't hear people whispering. I can't hear people talking softly.
I have to keep repeating myself with "huh?" "huh?" "huh?".
I just hope I will recover before the 2nd week of may.

Oh. What's wrong with everyone.
Why must you people change.
What's happening.
It isn't how it used to be.
Changing in to people I don't know, not anymore.
When will you people realise that I seriously missed the old-self
of you all?

I love you. I do. I know it's more to impossible.
But still, I wished you'd understand. Time isn't a problem.
Love needs time to nature. It's the willingness and the ability to accept.
I know it's you.

2008-04-24T22:29:00.001+08:00

I went back to see my polyclinic.
And I guess this time round I got more medicine than previously.
More tablets and cough mixture.
I hope I get well soon. Doctor said I will be 80% well by end of the week.
Then went to eat and went to library read books.
haha. today was a little fun. :D

School was great.
Nothing much though.
To all my friends having SA1 soon, tomorrow or maybe even started already
take good care of yourself okay! And do properly! Good luck! ^^.

nights.

2008-04-23T23:11:00.002+08:00

Today, my N95 had his first stay at someone else house.
Well, that's of course NOKIA CARE CENTRE.
I went to sent it for servicing.

I walked to the counter and told the person "I need to service my phone."
Then usually they would ask what's the problem before giving you a number.
Cos maybe different queues are for different problem?
Then he asked me "What's the problem?."
I looked at him and said "Alot of problems."
He just pressed the for the queue number. Hahaha.
Really, that dumb phone has 4 majour problems and battery depletion.
Sent it in and I need to wait for a week before I can get it back.
Oh well, I have to live with my old old phone.

Nothing much happen after that. I went to get my hair cut :D
And went home. Tiring day.
Tml I guess I have to do my 2.4 run. Damn shit. I don't want.
I'm still having cough and it will affect!

Okay. Goodnight. (:

2008-04-23T01:09:00.001+08:00

Today I had my tuition!
It's the longest ever.
2 1/2 hour.
Wa, but I don't know why, I am able to stay awake and
focus all the way without dozing off.
Haha.
Today was a little fun though, and teacher seems to be happy.

The only thing that irritated me was the flying ants above me head!
Okay, usually when there is flying ants, I would kill them and close the window.
But now I can't close the window and there's 6 above me.
AHH. not that I m scared of it la. I just don't like it.
The worse part is when the flying ants drop their wings. And they would just
craw around until they get killed.
It's sucky!

I killed 2. The rest flew into my light and got stuck, eventually over heated and death. Hehe.

Tomorrow's Wednesday, must wear tie!
Haha. Alright, I just finished doing my stuff late in the night.
I m going off now.

Loves people.

2008-04-21T22:32:00.002+08:00

Had my appointment at TTSH.
Visited the doctor, let him check check my ear, ask afew question
then went for hearing test.
Damn fun luh, place headphone on my ear. Test the sound of the beeping.
Left and my right ear.
Then another one is one side is having buzzing sound and another side
would be the beeping sound. Ask me to hear, if I can hear the beeping sound
press button.
Yup, then went back to doctor there, he explained to me about my hearing problem.
I can only hear 85%. And got medicine to take again. Sian, I don't like medicine.
Then need to go back again 2 weeks times to test once more.

Well, today was a little rushing.
Tml, having tuition. But I still going to spend my afternoon
worthly! xD.

Okay, that's all for today.
Goodnight people.

2008-04-19T01:25:00.000+08:00

Today was a rushing day for me.
I woke up at 9am.
Woke up in the morning wanted to go and cut my hair.
But the shop never open that early.

I was actually suppose to leave house at 9.30am or earlier so
I will have enough time to take bus down to meet my friends at vivo city.
They wanted to go to CHIJ St Thersa Convent for the canival.
I knew I couldn't reach by 11am. Syamir didn't wanted to believe.

So in the end I left house at 10.10am.
After waiting for so long, wondering if the shop is going to open anot.
Cos it says "8.30 am daily", which I think it can just be taken down.
It's rubbish.

Left house, rushing down took a cab here and there.
And it bloody cost me $15. Expensive can. Heart pain man.

Met them at vivo. All smokers. Tsk Tsk. I so guai never smoke. >"<.
Then took 143 down, syamir thought he was going the right way, until...
We reached and guess what. It was CHIJ Kellock. What the hell. Wrong one.
Then took 124 or something. Went down to lower delta road, that's the right place.
He never tell me the place, if not I will bring him there already :D

The canival was so-so only luh. The booklet of tickets cost $10 and worth $10.
No extra siol. haha.

Slack there awhile, and syamir had his break dance battle with the girls there.
He only won one girl out of so many battles =x

Then after that, we went to dhoby ghuat and went seperate ways.

Yup. That's all.
Goodnight.

2008-04-17T22:10:00.003+08:00

Hey, thanks jonie.
Haha.

Okay, it's been so long and ever since that day,
I have always been praying and wishing that one day,
a miracle would happen. I don't know if it's happening now anot.
But I really finding you really hard. I hope this time, I would know
where you are, and how you are.

Today, everything was alright.
Had chemistry test, and I know im sure going to flunk it.

Many things changed. It's no longer how it used to be.
I don't mind, because I am always happy.

I guess tonight would be a great night for me to rest.
Tml would be the last day of the week! yay!
Then it's what I have always been waiting for everyweek, my weekends~!

NIGHTS.

2008-04-16T22:29:00.003+08:00

Today morning was CRAZY.
Okay, It's like that.
I went to school in the morning.
I was really sleepy and tired.
I hardly have the energy to talk to anyone.

7.00am, I was in class resting.
7.05am, I felt a little tired, plus there's only another 2 of my friends
in the class, it's really boring.
7.11am, I fell asleep.
7.25am, I heard the bell rang, but I thought the parade sq ground was wet
so therefore assembly would be in the class.
But I was WRONG.
I went back to sleep and the it's so horrible!

7.30am, I woke up because the classroom was hot, I realise noone was inside.
Fans and Lights was off. I knew they left me inside without waking me up.
I peep out the window I saw 2 Student Leader outside my class.
At first, the didn't know I was in class.
I was dumb to tried to open the front door when it was lock. Then they knew I was inside.
I could just leave by the back door, but I thought it was okay to stay in class.
They forced me out.
I went down to sit with all the late comers.

Then the fucking student leader damn extra leh, I hated him long ago.
He went to report to the teacher, oh well. I didn't really care.
Went to see the teacher after assembly, she know me since sec 1 after catching me
for my uniform and everything for 4 years. She laughed leh. When I told her I slept and I was lock inside. She just told me to be more alert next time.
Then went back to class, My fucking form teacher made fun of me. Screw his ass la.

And I slept throughout alot of periods today.
I'mmmmm soooo tired.
GOODNIGHT.

2008-04-15T01:04:00.001+08:00

Okay! time to post for 3 days!

Saturday, I went to TTSH in the night, private clinic to
see the docotor telling him about my ear.
He gave me medicine for my fever,cough,flu and a medicine for
my ear but he said my ear was normal.
He advised me to see ENT clinic. Those specialist in ear,nose and throat.
Monday then I would be able to know when my appointment is.

Sunday, Nothing much happen. I just hate the pain in my ear and the
irritatingness of it. Especially the buzzing sound. Damn.

Monday, I went to TTSH for my ENT appointment.
There was only me and 3 other patients at the clinic.
I guess its because it's late already. 6.15pm.

Yup, I was suppose to go for the hearing test then to see the doctor.

But the guy there at the hearing test, was like damn stupid and blur.
He check my ear and asked me to go see the docotor first before
coming back. I think he knows nothing, still got the cheek to tell me
"its very doubtful".

Okay, so I went to see the doctor, then he got my ear vacuumed.
It's like damn scary lah. I can't even move a single bit. I was
so damn afraid. Though when I was young I got ear problems too.
And even got shot by water guns straight in to my ear once.
Then he applied cream for my ear. He said was infection.

I will be alright if I take the ear drop and take
the medication. Next week still have to go back once more to clear everything.
Oh well.

I just hate it. I don't even know what caused the damn infection.

Goodnight <3.

2008-04-11T20:09:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, I went to see doc.
And I explain to the doc all my pains and sickness.
I got headache, I got slight fever, I got sore throat pain, I got cough,
My ear hurts really bad..

She gave me 2days mc for Thursday and Friday.
But I told her "It's okay la, 1day mc is enough.."
But she insisted on giving me 2days MC,
she said "I give you but if you don't use also can.."

Last night, my ear hurts really really bad.
It's so pain that I cried. Hais.
I was so scared I would go deaf.

Then this morning I woke up at 5.30am as usual.
Thinking if I should go school anot.
Cos' my ear still hurts.
Then I think think till I fell back to sleep =x

I got alot of homework to catch when I return on monday man.
SO SIAN. HOMEWORK HOMEWORK. What else can the teacher do in class man!

This morning when I woke up, I felt my ear,
then I realize that my ear was actually bleeding all the while.
Hais. Now it's like I don't feel my right ear exist at all.

Oh well, I rest alot already.
And I really wanna get well soon.
Just finished my tuition not long ago.
Next week having lots of class test.

Blog again tomorrow (:

2008-04-09T22:47:00.002+08:00

OH FUGGING SHIT.
I AM SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY with my holiday today.
But the fugging thing is. I FALL SICK THIS MORNING :(
So sad luh, I have to stay at home and receive calls from my friends
asking me where am I. And I have to reply them "I am having fever, can't go out.."

It's okay. I guess I am feeling better now.
After taking Panadol active fast :D
Haha. My bro said I was trying to advertise of them.
"Panadol active fast, it's so fast that you won't even realise you recovered.."
Okay, that's lame.

Tml if I am not alright, I will skip school!

Goodnight peopleee.

2008-04-07T22:57:00.002+08:00

Tell me that you want, because I really do.
I am always waiting.

OKAY! Tomorrow is Tuesday I start sch late. WHEE.
And Wednesday I don't have school!
COOL RIGHT. hahaha.
I feel this week is really slack.

Now, I find that everything is going back to normal.
I guess sometimes people need time to realize who is
really innocent and who is really the trouble maker.

I am happy that you sort things out.

I am going to bed soon!
Blog again soon. (:
I had my chinese class test today.
It was bull crap man.
I didn't do at all.
JJ provided me with the MCQ answer and I slept 45 mins out of the 1 hr.

Nights lovers.

2008-04-04T14:53:00.003+08:00

Everything is in a mess now.
I hardly know who to believe.
Well, it just changed in less than a week.
What's wrong with you people?
What the fuck you want?

I mean if there's anything you're unhappy about about me,
FEEL FREE to tell me in my face.
I don't mind. It's better than gossiping.
I never had this before all my life.
And now, I am tell you that I hate it.
I hate people gossip. IF you have the guts to say,
why not infront of me?
Damn you alright.
I can live without you around,
although we went through alot in our brotherhood.
You changed just like that.

I guess the weekend would be a good time
to cool down. I usually pretend that nothing have happen before
when a new week starts. I believe in looking forward than to hold gruages.

Tuition starting in an hour time.
Then im going out to rest.
I hate all this man.
It's killing me.
nono. IT'S not going to. (:

-LOVES HER.
Be mine, will you?

2008-04-02T21:12:00.002+08:00

OKAY! SORRY I havent been blogging for such a long time.
I have been really really busy with my DNT and many more work.
School is driving me crazy.
Recently, It's the 2nd radio station that visited my school.
And this week was 91.3fm. They talk alot of cock.
And after that paul 2 hill sang. People called him "emo fuck." LOL.
He kept adjusting his cap like he wanted to attract some targeted guys that he had.

I cut my hair short few days back and I had my 5cm long tail.
But the fucking sad part is, my tail lasted for 2 days only and it got cut today.
Damn. Morning I was sitting at the parade sq. I didn't know that the teacher was
behind me. She caught me and told me that my hair wasn't complying with the school rules. I walked to the office, I saw my friend. So we went to sit at the table and talk. Bell rang, I told him "Let's go back class! :D."
I thought nothing would happen.
Then 20mins later, the some head of student leader's council came to my class
and find me. Shocking man. That teacher went to flip through the school album which
consist of the whole school photos and clas and she found me.
Target me so hard. I asked my friend to cut for me. I never trust teachers in cutting. They will just cut straight!
Oh well, not it's short. When it's longer then I gonna get back my tail.

I got alot more to post,
But I can't really rmb them all now.

much loves.

All I need is you.
Your everything just to keep me alive.
Be mine, will you?

2008-03-18T01:22:00.002+08:00

I envy those that have a sweet loving relationship.
those that both care and love each other.
those that are handsome and pretty.
those that never quarrel.
those that treasure each other.
those that would willing to change for one another.
those that will trust each other and will not lie.

Nights.

2008-03-16T13:10:00.002+08:00

AHH. morning madness.
I see pimpers on my face. This cannot be happening!
haha. oh well, I guess it's because I didnt drink enough water and
lack of my sleep. IT will disappear soon.

I NEED $$.
I need money to buy
#1. Creative zen.
#2. Canon D40X to share with my sister.
#3. My photo printer.
#4. To change my phone again. ( maybe not. see first. )

LETS SEE. I NEED AT LEASE. $1050. LOLOL!
I will always be waiting for notes to drop down from the sky. ^.^

2008-03-16T02:28:00.003+08:00

I just want to love someone that I like.
And just want to be love back the same.
Why can't this happen.

Noone knows.

Planning my whole week soon.
I decided not to slack anymore.
It's time everything has a beginning.
Holiday was so-so. I didn't enjoy much.
Rather. I was tired of it.
I really wished school start earlier.
I don't know why, but I guess it's because
I missed my friends.
Those fun and laughter. Can't live without it.

to sense the love,
to feel the love,
to nature the love,
to hold the love,
to never let go of the love.

2008-03-15T00:40:00.003+08:00

Today it's a little different.
Ahh. Went out for dinner. Then walk & home.
I was in the bus going back home.
And then I saw this man.. at first I didn't really care
but I thought I saw my daddy. I wasn't convinced,
SOOO I turned back and look ONCE, I couldn't really see.
TWICE, I saw half body only. Cos I didn't want to turn 180degrees.
THIRD time. Woah. It was really my daddy. Haha.
1st time in my 16 years of life. Quite funny though. I guess
he didn't know that his son is on board the bus too.

TML is a SATURDAY.
WHEE.
And school is gonna open in 2 days time!

2008-03-14T02:22:00.000+08:00

It may sound the same but it's different!
And yeah. I got the blogger nav off my blog.
It looks nicer now.

Going off now!

2008-03-13T12:36:00.001+08:00

I guess maybe this few days
you're busy. Or maybe it's because
you just don't have the mood.
Well, I am always waiting.

Today, I'm staying at home to complete
my homeworks. It's so fucking boring!

2008-03-12T02:15:00.002+08:00

Tonight, I read through all of my friends blog.
I really did see how each and everyone of them expressed their
feelings & thoughts through blogging.
Everyone has their own way of typing out.
Different way of expressing. But no matter what, we all just wanted
a place to express out all our feelings and thoughts.
Or maybe others use it for other reasons.

This year, since the beginning till now I faced alot already.
And I know there would be more ahead of me.
I'm still thinking of my past & all my dreams.
Dreams that I know it will never happen unless there would be a miracle to happen.

All I know is that, my heart only beats for you.
And it can also stop beating if you want it to stop.

I just let go something that was deep down in my heart for very long time.
I hope everything will be fine.

I had my tuition this morning.
A little draggy. I wasn't fully awake.
A blink of an eye and the holidays are ending.
I left a lot more to do.

I can't seem to sleep.
Damn. I guess tomorrow I am going to be dead tired.

Going off now.
I am gonna row on my bed till I sleep.
I can't go on like that. I will have panda eyes.

2008-03-10T13:03:00.002+08:00

First thing that came to my mind.
Design and Technology.
OMFG. I don't have any idea of what to make.
SHIT LUH. Everyone else is so busy doing their DNT work
but I seems to be so free can. I don't know to make!

Damn. Screw this year's topic "design".
It's difficult luh.
I SHALL brainstorm one of this day.

I don't understand why I can't see those heading on my Internet Explorer
but I can see it on my N95. =.="

Blog again tonight.
The gift was really cute and sweet. I like it. (:

2008-03-09T23:50:00.001+08:00

AHH.
It's was a great day.
Tml will be doing my homeworks.
I don't want to keep dragging.

Thanks for everything.

I changed the blogskin. I hope it looks nice.

PS./ I'm still in the mist of editing to blogskin. Give me time!

2008-03-03T22:44:00.003+08:00

Sorry I havent been blogging for the past...
Past... let's say 1 1/2 weeks?
Yeah. I am tottaly down.
Physically and mentally.

FIRST. I wanna to say is that.
I went to visit metta home last last thursday.
It was really exciting. Being able to see those
not normal people out there.
They didn't want to be given birth out like that too.
It is a home for those intellectually disabled.
I learnt alot okay.

Put that aside. School was still alright.
Though I still have problems with teachers.
And now that I am cca-less. I don't know what to do.
I suddenly felt so free every friday. Unlike the usual cannot-be-bothered type.
Tuition was pushing me. I understand maths now. I just need more practice
and motivation to keep me going.
I can be distracted very easily.
And getting me back to track maybe a little hard.

Next week is march holiday alrdy. So fast eh!
But still got to go back school, I think?
And this saturday im having my Flag day in toa payoh int.
I hate it man. It sucks. I don't wanna to ask people to donate.
They will give me 10 cents? 20 cents?

Relationships are really blocking almost half of my mind.
Sitting here thinking how I wish I could be with you all day long.
I just simply hope you will know how it feels.
It's difficult to explain everything through words.

Few months more to my prelims. then to my N level.
I don't have much time.
Mugging very soon. haha.

How are you guys eh?
Still happy? or still busy with all your work.
Unlike the holiday mood. Everyday got nothing to do.
Haha. Just missed them really alot.

Blog again tml.
I got to revise for my maths test tml.
I hope I can get a A to make my tuitor happy.
Nights people.

2008-02-20T22:21:00.001+08:00

When I was young I always thought that
life is just like a story book,
everything all planned and nothing could be changed,
and when i lost something I thouht that it would be gone forever.
I would always cry, hoping that a mircale would happen,
again i was wrong. I took a different path,
a different way, now that im able to think differently, I am able to understand
what is right ann wrong being able to see them seperately.
I knw that one day I must face this, and that,
I will make it up to you to choose,
being someone i never been before is just tiring.

The heart will never stop beathng.

I am seriously in love with you.

2008-02-18T20:32:00.002+08:00

Today I learnt alot and I dont know whats wrong with me in sch
I would start shouting for no reasons.
Sorry to my friends that I shouted at.
Yeah, and another bigger thing happened today,
trying really hard to solve it.
When will he ever realise that I am deep damn sorry of what
I have done.

Oh well. Life's still have to go on.
I can't do much to change their thinking.
I hope when you read this, you'd get what I mean.

My sister asked me to put in a little money to share buy a SLR.
Whee. I am so happy! She just needed the camera at times only.
Hahaha, I am so happy.

Okay, I will blog again tml.
Tata.

2008-02-17T19:05:00.007+08:00

Happy belated valentine's day!
LOL!
I forgot to blog luh.
Okay, this few days everything was FUCKED UP.
Man I totally can't forget it.
I am sleepy now. Will reblog again tml!
hahaha.

2008-02-14T00:28:00.002+08:00

Too sweet too soon.
Hi peeps.
I guess this few days, I am sure going to be really moody.
I don't know why. But I can't think straight.
Not in a dirty way, please.
I just can't think the way I used to think.
That's all.
I guess I just need time?

Today to me is considered a Joker's day.
I talked alot of cock in class.
I made lame jokes -.-
Well. just to entertain myself.

Today also, during recess.
Gary and me discovered alot of mysterious marks left
on trees behind the canteen.
It's really spooky. I don't know how to explain.
It's finger marks. Oh man, I almost freak out.
I don't dare to take pictures. Camera are really sensitive to
all this kind of stuff. You can capture one. And for sure
you can even capture it bringing it home. Get me?
Another place was at the stairs up to the hall.
Maybe this is just our eyes playing tricks.
But I believe it's real.
The black spot really do move. It's not the first time.
I been behind there many times and always when I look at it.
It moves. Oh well. Every school has their own story. Try finding yours!

Happy valentine's day to everyone
whether you are single, attached, rejected, dump.
Just be happy on this day.
Hope you enjoyed it!
Cheers.
I won't be celebrating mine, unless it's with my tuition teacher.
Hahahaha. I am stuck every thursday. Boohoo.

2008-02-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

Today many happy things happened!
I seems to be damn happy and crazy today.
I don't know why too. Maybe because I finally
cleared all my thoughts on my mind.
Wuhahaha.

Also today, I will gamble on my love life.
On something which I never tried before.
I can sense that God above really wanted to
tell me something. something that it's important for me
to know. Things that I never expected to happen
just happen infront of me.
I was shock and I didn't know how to react.
Maybe tonight I won't be able to sleep well.
Maybe tonight I will fly up to the sky with a great big
smile on my face.
I will not know. I will just be waiting.
Though I am afraid. I will face through it no matter what.

Valentine's day is coming.
I can't wait. =/

Loves.

- updated.
post #2.

You know ;
you really did capture my heart.
how much hope I placed in this dream of mine?
you're the first?
everytime I think of you,I just couldn't stop telling myself how much I like you.
Everytime when I see you, my heart beats so fast.
My cold swear starts. My mind was completely blank.
I could think of nothing to say.

Everytime I asked about you, I just wished I could find them
out myself. Knowing that it was impossible.

You know,
I would cry for you?
You know,
I liked you for more than 8 months by now?
You know,
how much courage I took just to type that message?
You know,
how many times I wanted to send but I was just afraid?
You know,
how many times I wished I could just message with your replies?
You know,
I never wanted to give up at all?
You know,
It hurts when you told me that you're attached.
You know,
now that I know everything.
I will just say, girl, I wish you all the best in your r/s.
I know you won't know all this. I know maybe you wouldn't even care or bother.
You're the deepest I ever had. And you will always be.

When one day, you so happen to read this, just promise me that you will
just answer them in your heart alright?

- rence.

2008-02-07T12:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !
Yeah, well of course. That's for all my chinese friends~!

Haha, Last night I went to catch Jay Chou's slam down movie.
Reached there, bought hotdogs! I like it. And went in.
We were late. haha. I didn't really catch the starting part of the movie.
When he was a kid and what so ever that he said.
The movie was damn funny and stupid. But still, worth watching to lighten your mood.
The part I felt very lame and I was the only person kept laughing was when
everyone turned into ice. You won't know what I am talking if you didn't watch it. So go catch it okay!

I wanna watch Ah long pte ltd.
Maybe gonna watch it tml. or something.
Hahaha.

Now I am waiting for people to come before I can leave house to go
pai nian. I am all ready up to get my ang paos! :D:D
WHEEE.

Okay. Blog again tonite.
Sayos. Enjoy your day peeps!

2008-02-05T21:00:00.001+08:00

OH FUCK.
YEAH I started my post with that.
FUCK FUCK FUCK.
My phone got confiscated.
Well, once again after 2 years.
Since my last phone was confiscated in sec2.

Yeah. And although I am going to get it back
tomorrow. I still don't like it.
Sorry I didnt reply messages. I got no choice.
Actually, I planned to pon school tml.
Cos it fucking end at 11.30am. Then now,
I have to go to school just to get back my phone.
Nabeh cheebye.

If she ever view any of my stuff in my phone.
I sure gonna do the same thing as sec2.
I am gonna write letter to principal.
I don't care I don't like people to intrude my privacy.
Which I can know easily.

Damn. Honestly, ever since school began.
Today is the worst day!
I am so damn suay.

School sucks.
I am just looking forward to get back my phone.
That's all that is on my mind.
I feel as if something is missing man.

I love you.
Blog again tml.

2008-02-03T00:26:00.000+08:00

Okay, I got lots to say!
I just went to view "someones" blog.
Woah. She's really style.
I don't know how to describe.

Okay, Friday was pretty good.
This is for you alright,
Cmon. What's wrong with you?
I guess maybe because you're comfortable and stress
with your new sec 3 classs. But I am sure you can don't be like
that right?
Don't think you changed. Only people around you can tell it. Not yourself.
You arent irritating at all. Since when you are?
Well, even if everyone hates you, I don't.
No matter what. I don't.

Yup, preparing alot for chinese new year.

I came back just now, brought my dog down.
Cos' my cousin was shopping at the NTUC downstairs my house.
Open till very late.
I was free, so i went behind my dog and grab him.
Went out of the house press lift then tied him.
Hahaha. I can tell for sure the other two of my dogs is jealous.
He was happy alright. He likes going walk walk.
Yup. My cousin went to force him to run, so bad right.
While waiting, my dog sat outside the entrance, my cousin was holding it.
then suddenly this girl came and said "wow, so cute, i want touch..."
I kept quiet, the girl rub his head. And I was giving my cousin my "diao" look.
Wuhahaha.

I don't know what's wrong with me either.
I felt really different this whole week.
It's like, I am having something that is blocking my mind.
Can't concentrate. Can't figure what isit.
Ahh. But I kept telling myself, "I am just tired.. I will be normal if I sleep more.."

Okay.
I think I will stop here.
Blog again tml. or something.
I miss you.

2008-01-31T21:56:00.000+08:00

Okay! Lots to blog.
My vista is up.
I can say its very lag.
But it's okay. I am gonna get my 80gb hard disc soon.
uhm. got chemistry test today. I anyhow whack!
I still remember asking my whole class "You think you pass or fail?"
wuhahaha.
Okay. Today is damn tiring. I only slept 4hrs in total.
Managed to last the whole day.
probably gonna be dead on bed soon.

Maths test tml!
SIAN. brain going to explode again..

Blog again tml.
I still cant seems to install Audition on my Vista.
Help, anyone?

I love you.
I do.
I am serious.

Tell me when you do too,
please?

2008-01-30T10:41:00.000+08:00

I PON school TODAY.
Hahaha. Supposedly, I was to wake up at 8am.
But I slept at 4am, so I can survive with just 4 hours of sleep.
Kenji ponned with me! I just called him. And realised he was sleeping.
hohoho.

This morning was fucking terrible.
I got like 4 calls in the morning.
Kept asking me question.
I don't even remember what I replied.
Anw, this morning I was really blur.
Sorry about that.

I finally have my 19" monitor!
Additional 1GB ram. And next is to change my
Windows XP to Windows Vista and add another 80GB DDR Ram.
Then my computer will be power pac!
Hahaha.

I love you.
I really do.
Each time I am hoping to get to meet you.
My heart just pumps faster and faster.
I really want you.

I am going to be a guai kia.
I needa study for this week tests.
And do my tuition homework before the teacher goes crazyy with me.

This is what I got from ytd it was printed on a paper...

Inside Out
When I was young and free and
my imaginations had no limits.
I dreamed of changing the world.

As I grew older and wiser I realiszed
the world would not change.

And I decided to shorten my sights
somewhat and change only my
country.
But it too seemed immovable.

As I entered my twilight years, in
one last desperate attempt, I
sought to change only my family,
those closet to me, but alas they
would have none of it.

And now here I lie on my death
bed and realise (perhaps for the first time)
that if only I'd changed
myself first, then by example I may
have influenced my family and
with their encouragement and
support I may have bettered my
country, and who knows I may
have change the world.

When I was like you,
reading it through.
The only thing was on my mind was.
Who knows I could just change the world,
But all I got to do, is to change myself first.

Morning smells so damn great! :x
Byebye.

2008-01-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

It's been a week since I last blogged.
Wonder who visit's me?
Maybe you did. Maybe you did'nt. I don't know.

Many things happened in just a week!
And I guess this is the worst week since the year start.

I forgot what I always wanted to blog.
I would sit infront of the comp, log on to my blogger account,
stare at it. But my fingers just doesen't move.

Well, overall. I manage to solve every bit of problems I faced.
I got my N level question already and I am starting on it bit by bit. I will do my very best! hahaha.
School have been really great. I haven't been going to cca since school start,
last week I went to polyclinic because I am always having really bad sudden headache, really hurts alot. I was on medication for a week. But now, my medicint finished, and I still am having headaches. Ahh. If I go back to polyclinic they sure gonna ask me go for x-ray! Nah, I don't want to know what I am suffering.

Bought new clothes for chinese new year. I am ready for it!
I can't wait to have $$ in my pockets! wheehehehe. I sound BAD.

This is for you.
I miss you really bad.
I miss you with my every bit.
I like your hair ever since you changed it.
No matter what other people said. I liked your hair, ever if it looks butch.
I like the way you are.
I like your attitude although it's bad at times.
I don't mind.
I like the way you dress.
I like the way you talk.
I like the way you show yourself.

There is alot I can say.
It just can't end.
Well, I don't care what you replied me in the sms I sent.
I know you didn't mean it.
I know you are not like that and something is bothering you.
Like I said. I can don't talk to you. I can don't meet you.
But you're in my heart always. No matter where you are. No matter what happened. I will always know.

You seems as if you don't care about me.
Not even a single bit.
But I just want to say.
I like you.
I really want you.

I will wait for you to see this.
Wait for you to reply me at time when I will never expect.
I will always be waiting.

I realised I don't have any "Charming" links to add. hahaha!
If I forgot to blog anything, I will post again okay!
Today is the longest post! (:
Goodnight people!

2008-01-17T21:31:00.001+08:00

YAY. Tuition ended.
Let's see. Tuitor is friendly, alittle joker.
That's all. Not really that bad. haha.
And I got homework to do alrdy!

I guess I blog again when I am freee bah.
LOVES.

2008-01-17T16:41:00.000+08:00

So much to change so little time to catch.
Everyone is blogging lesser and lesser.
Today or actually its every thursday, maths remedial after school
till 4pm. Them maths tuition at 7pm. Oh man. Thursday is gonna be a
maths day for me!

School have really been fun till now.
There are many things to share.
Somehow, I cant really rmb them all..
Well. Friday is tml. And once again its weekend.
I just don't get it. Everyday passes so fast.
So fast four days gone.
And its closer and closer to my N level.

To all my friends, take care always okayy!
Misses lots !
Maybe I will blog again tonite.
:D

2008-01-14T23:42:00.000+08:00

I can no longer hold on to all my feelins and emotions.
I really can't wait just to tell you all this.
But I am afraid its going to be really hard.
Everyday I would I could just be a inch closer to you.
Everyday I just wish one day I will end up being with you.

I know, I know I can.
I will prove to you.
Though we maybe from two different world,
don't even know each other well,
but I am sure time will solve everything!
There will be nothing impossible.

Though I am still unwell.
But I am feeling much much much better!
Tml school start at 8.45am! WHEEE.
I love tuesday.

Tuition is starting in : 2days.
BOOHOO.

2008-01-13T02:41:00.001+08:00

IMMA SICK.
I hate being sick!
Someone take care of me pleasee? :(

Not much to blog too.
I must recover soon!

Love ya peeps.

2008-01-10T21:56:00.000+08:00

Today SUCKED.
I don't wish to explain what happen.
But i am fucking angry.
And again it involve police.

I just want to say,
When will I be able to get you?

I wish its soon.

MUACKS PEEPS.

2008-01-09T23:56:00.000+08:00

Today is GREAT.
Had whole lots of fun!
I almost miss my bus in the morning though.
After school, went to vivo the walk walk.
With kenji and gary.
We were talking cock throughout. hahaha.
looking at girls and as usual commenting. :x
Ate Carl's JR. It fucking cost me like $14?
But okay la. It's kind of full. Make me feel as if
I just put on another 1.5 KG. SUCKS.
Straight after that. They two was busy in the toilet.
I don't understand how come their stomach can produce so fast
but mine CAN'T. wuhahahaha. Yup. Played at Toy r'us.
A heart of a child !
Then we went different directions.

I have a english essay to do.
But I just realise it like an hour ago. SO, IM NOT DOING.
I don't careeee. I hate doing essay at home.
hehehe.

The feeling of missing someone so badly,
that I have never felt before.
The feeling of wanting someone badly,
that I never realise it before.
I miss you so much even I myself don't know who am I.
It's so confusing.
It makes me think alot.
But the ending will still be, I want you.

Sayo people.

2008-01-08T23:17:00.000+08:00

AWWW.
I don't know if it's the height measurement wrong or
I shrink!
Actually if im not wrong. Noone grew taller, is either
the same height or shorter.
And I put on some weight though. I feel myself fatter alrdy.
Need to loose out some soooooooon! { I NEED TO SLIM DOWN AT LEASE 5KG. }

After school was really crazy.
me,syamir and kenji went to some cheap hospital
located opp macritchie reservoir.
Why I say cheap. Is because its so deep in. And inconvient.
Wards look small and dull. The hospital is actually small.
Yup. whatever. Im not going to stay there also. haha.
{went there because syamir's girlfriend is laying on the bed.}
We played a little of hide and seek. & catching.
We was following syamir till we lost him. So we waited somewhere
and suddenly he appeared infront of us towards our direction.
HE didn't like it. But who cares? :D

Stopped disturbing him alrdy.
So me and kenji went to get a bite at the vending machine.
We wanted to see new born babies. He said we can see through the glass window.
But sadly when we were there, the cute babies are sleeping. Never get to see anything.

We went seprate direction after that.
That's all for today.

I miss you.
It's all I know.

2008-01-07T23:41:00.000+08:00

I am blogging with my brother's new desktop.
It's a fucking 19" monitor. knn.
Is as good as a TV la.
Damn cool.
Well, i m getting one too :D
I just wanted a 17" but he insisted of me getting a bigger one.

Everything was good this few days.
Including school.
This the first time, I really like school.
Maybe because of the change of teachers that really
work out well.
Social studies is the most fun period with all the racist jokes.
Just can't stop laughing.

Something is just bothering me.
I can't seem to figure it out.
Maybe just because I am sensitive bah.

Tml school starts at 8.40 am.
I m leaving house at 8 am. YAY.
I love tuesday although school ends late. 2.50 pm.
I am planning to have my macdonald's breakfast in the morning.
Woohoo. and tml gonna be taking height and weight I guess.
I hope my weight still stays the same? :D

--
Everything is messy now.
I don't know what to do.
All I want is you.

2008-01-06T13:14:00.000+08:00

In every guy there will always be a girl in his mind and heart.

Do you even know about all this ?
Somehow, I really wish you do.

I miss you alot.
When can I get to see you again?
Will it be soon?

--

2008-01-05T01:21:00.000+08:00

4th day of school.
I seems to like it.
I have know where to stand.
Where I should be heading.
How well I should be doing.
I will do it. I will give my best.
I promise I will.
I just want to score well and be able to go to
poly. Study the course I want.

I got my timetable alrdy.
The only day I like is Tuesday and Friday.
Tuesday school starts the latest at 8.40am.
Friday ends school the earliest at 1.10pm.

Preparing everything this week.
Next week is when all the subjects will start rolling.
I know I gotta catch up. I got to catch really alot.

Well, that's all for school.

I miss you really bad.
It's seems so difficult for me to explain everything.
Because noone would ever understanding me.
I know you won't be able to know all this.
I know somehow I am nothing to you.
But honestly, I like you.
Yes, I do alot.
It's been a long time alrdy.
I kept it to myself all the while.
I tried to start. I tried to make things go well.
But I failed. Things that I didn't expected happened.
I am lost. I am confused. I turn to nothing. I turn to noone.
I don't know what I should do.

All I really wish for is just to be closer to you.

Goodbye.

2008-01-02T20:13:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!
People have you enjoyed yourself?
:D

I end school at 12noon today & tml!
Hahaha.
And my school starts at 8.45am every tuesday!

Okay, I reached school at 7.22am.
Assembly start at 7.25am. (:
Then talk here and there,
then went out to serangoon estate to
pick newspaper as CIP.
Had lots of fun, slack here and there under
the block. hahaha.
Then after that headed back to school for recess
& school END!

How good if everyday could be like that! :D

2008-01-01T03:30:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!
Im blogging thru wifi on my phoneyy!

Okay! I am here to type out my new year resolution!

MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION FOR 2008:
1. To study hard and get good results in my N level.
2. To be more understanding.
3. To not be so playful like how I was before.

YUP. thats all!
CHEERs PEOPLE.
TML SCH OPEN LE.
Got rmb to pack books?
Got rmb to bring everything?
If your hair got colour, got dye black?
Ear holes rmb put ear sticks.
School uni prepare alrdy?
School shoe got buy?
Books rmb write name.
LOL. what else I missed out? :x

sayoo.

2007-12-31T02:29:00.000+08:00

A few more hours to go before its 2008 !
I m gonna post my new year resolution later!

I miss you !
That's all I wanna say!

2007-12-30T12:49:00.001+08:00

Everytime when I think of you,
My heart beat would go really really fast.
My face will turn really red.
My mood will change to hyper & happy.
My mind will then filled with thoughts of you.

I know this time it's for real.
I know this time it's you.

I can never stop telling you,
How much I need you.
How much I always wanted you.
How close I am just waiting for you to call my name.
Always wanting to be there for you without fail.

Tell me how much I am to you? I really want to know.

School is opening in 2days time.
I am looking forward!

Alright, new year eve tml.
Anyone have plans?
I don't know about me.
So far I havent think of anywhere or anything.

Nothing to blog ler.
Maybe update later (:

2007-12-28T01:06:00.000+08:00

I hope you like it.
I woke up really really early just to be able to get
everything done smoothly.
I slept for less then 2 hours last night.

Went nowhere today.
Bored the whole day.
And I really feel damn sucky when
I have to feel stress.
Being fucking emotional.

You driving me crazy you know?
It's not just you. It's everybody around you.
It seems so hard for you to understand.

&& lastly.
I MISS MY BABY!
{{ Hope you know who you are. I call you baby almost always! }}

2007-12-27T10:22:00.000+08:00

What am I exactly to you?
Why can't people see what I am doing for them?
I guess I can't change it no matter how hard I am trying.

Well, I had a rough morning.
Went out as early as 7am.
Did what I was supposed to do and I am at home now to rest.

Going out again later.

School is going to open soon.
IM NOT READY!
How I wish holiday is 3 months.
HMMS.

Will blog again later.
Tatas.

2007-12-26T12:42:00.000+08:00

Christmas at orchard was really nice!
Well, I was there yesterday. :D
People mountain people sea.

Took a bus down to cityhall.
Went to MPH and bought 2 books.
After that still had lots of time
so I decided to head to marina square.
before headed home.

Regret in the dictionary means;
" .... To remember with a feeling of loss or sorrow; mourn."
You might not see it as a big word or something big because its common.
But when it really happens, you will not be who you used to be.

I'M STILL FINDING ALL MY PAST BLOGGIE FRIENDS. C'MON TELL ME WHERE YOU ARE!

-- Happy birthday Yan. It is today not yesterday. Paiseh!

2007-12-25T00:58:00.001+08:00

Just got back from my cousin house!
Had lots of fun.
& It's damn funny luh.
Everyone is like so different. hahaha.

Anyway, a Merry christmas to everyone!

Wishing for more tags and links. :(

Going to bed now.
Exhausted.
Nights peeps.

2007-12-24T02:01:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK!
This time is for real (:

Blogskin is from Celestine.
Use it first before I find a really nice one.
Christmas is here in less than a day!

Dear Santa,
I don't know if you can read this or not,
But I would just wish to have a apple ipod touch
for my christmas present.
Thank you!

Alright, going to cousin house later in the evening.
She invited us for dinner. She's gonna cook.
Wonder if it will be nice anot. HMMMM.
& still no plans for christmas day.

FRIENDS OUT THERE!
I know I didn't blog for very long already,
now that I am back please please relink me/ add me in to your links.
I will add you in too when I have yours. Tag my box.
I will be so delighted!

Cheers peeps.

2007-11-25T10:20:00.000+08:00

I guess I never felt this way before.
I never gonna know what to do.
It's been so long since I bloged,
and now im back to continue! :D